Yesterday while hubby, Sofia and I were sitting in our car at Sonic waiting for our food, we heard a bunch of sirens. 4 cop cars and an ambulance zoomed by. Obviously attending an emergency. I thought out loud, "Hmmm... I wonder what happened. Something pretty serious obviously. That's the 4th cop car that's passed by." Hubby said, "Yeah, probably an accident. [insert short pause here] scary..." I replied with a "I know... so scary. It can happen to any of us..." We all stay quiet. Even Sofia... she was getting sleepy so she was just kind of day dreaming. I look at her and just thank the LORD for allowing me to live this long. To have her and to wake up next to her every waking moment. Hubby then says, "That reminds me, a lady died on base today." I said "OMG... really? What happened? How did she die???" "She had a brain tumor and by the time they found it, it was too late. She died." I'm not sure how right he was on all the details or if I got his story all right but from what I understood, the lady felt sick, they took her to the hospital, and she died from the brain tumor. Spontaneously. Just like that. Can you IMAGINE that? OMG. That is my biggest fear. I didn't use to fear death but now that I have a daughter, I do. I don't want to die early. I want to see her grow up. Maybe even grow a little old together. I want to go as far as I can! LOL So I can be there for her always... He says they are taking donations from people to give to her daughter whom she left behind and that he's in charge of taking those donations. OMG...! No... that's so SAD! I want to cry! Seriously. So then I tell him, "Gosh. That is so horrible. And so sad. Goes to show, you just never know when your day might come." "I know..." he says. "So that's why I'm going to live my life like tomorrow it will end.", I tell him. "Yeap." he replies.
Yeap. So sad that when tragedies like this happen, it's a reminder to us of how lucky we are to still be alive. Life is so short. Enjoy it! I don't mean for this to be a depressing post but just a kind reminder.
For me it's a reminder that life is too short. Don't focus too much energy on the bad things and people in your life and focus on the blessings you have right now. Be happy. Because we're all blessed.
Ok. That is all... Happy Wednesday!
When I read this post, I actually had tears in my eyes. Funny, I fear the same thing. I never thought of death before or feared it as much until my son was born. I can't imagine his life without me and it scares me when I do think of these things. This wasn't a depressing post, more like an eye opener post. Thanks. (I'm gonna give my son another kiss right now) ;)
ReplyDeletethis entry made me so sad. I have lost both my mom and grandma to cancer and now that i have children that is my biggest fear too. I want to live long enought to see them grown and married
ReplyDeleteI'm with ya', Tocayita!! In the last year I've tried to give a positive spin to my life. Honestly, my life is too short to deal with "dramas"!! So, I simply cut those people or situations out of my life. I tell my hubby all the time that I'm tired of arguing over dumb stuff, my life is to short to deal with that crap?! He agrees, and thankfully our home has become a better place!! I know I will always come accross one thing or another in my life, but I'm just trying to focus on a positive that can come out of the situation. Como dices, you just never know?
ReplyDeleteHugs my friend!! Luv U!! =o)
when i was nursing school, our professor told us this story about a guy who came home from basketball practice with a headache. he took some medicine, but it didn't go away. he was walking upstairs to go lay down, when he let out an excruciating scream. he died, right there, on the spot. come to find out he had a brain aneurysm. i suffer from migraines. every time i get one now, i think "oh no, i wonder if i could have a brain aneurysm." i think it's scary when people die all of a sudden, with no warning, no illnesses.
ReplyDelete(obviously I meant WITHOUT my parents, not WITH them lol)
ReplyDeleteI don't have any kids yet, and I'm sure I'll fear my own death when I have them.
ReplyDeleteMy greatest fear (in relation to death) is my parents dying. I cannot imagine my life with either one of them, and thinking about it for too long (because it is inevitable) makes me hysterical.
That fear for me shows how selfish I am, lol... as a daughter, I'm afraid of not having my mother and father there. When I become a mother, I'll be afraid of not being there for my daughter.
What a sad topic! I'm done talking about it. lol
You took the words right out of my mouth. You are so right. We all take things for granted and sometimes we all need a reality check. Thanks for the reminder.
ReplyDeleteLove ya!