T oday my heart shattered into a thousand pieces. Sofia fell off our bed. I felt so horrible. Like the worst mother EVER! I swear, the moment I heard that "THUD", my heart almost STOPPED beating and then I ran to her as fast as I could. I don't think I have ran that fast in a long time. I went to her and found her on the floor screaming her lungs out. OMG, I swear I could have killed myself! I kept rubbing her little head and begging her not to fall asleep. I got so scared! I immediately called Joe and told him what happened. [/hidepost][hidepost]Ana: I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should take her to the ER or what... [tears in her eyes, holding a sobbing Sofia in her arms]
Joe: I'm heading home right now.
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It took him a few minutes to get home. She cried the whole time. Slowly calming down. I kept telling myself I was a horrible mother in my head. "How could you??? Hello!!!??? How could you be so careless???? GEEEEZZZZ!!! She could have a concussion!" Like I said, I felt horrible. As I was sitting there comforting her, I got a flashback moment of when I was a little girl (probably 7 or 8 years old?) pacing back and forth in our living room with my baby brother in my arms. He was crying. I don't know how but I lost grip of him. I think he was wiggling in my arms or something. I just remember he hit the floor. I got so scared. My mother came running towards me, grabbed the baby and yelled at me like you wouldn't believe. I believe I got a good spanking too. I felt so sad. So horrible. AND hurt. I didn't mean to do it. It's not like I purposely dropped him. I was just... careless? And then snapped back to reality. There I was. Holding my own baby and trying to console her. I wanted to smack myself too. HARD! Geeez. Now I know how my Mother felt that time! Grrrr.... By the time Joe arrived, Sofia was all smiles, bouncing in my lap. Babbling and everything.
She got a bruise of course. Her first boo-boo. Poor thing. I don't know who was in more pain though. Her or me. I know she physically was in a lot of pain when it happened but my heart ached so much to see HER in pain. I wished I could rewind it and pause the moment where she was gonna fall and me instantly put pillows in the spot she fell so she would have never had a boo-boo. I wish!!! Anyway... we decided not to take her to the ER. She was fine. We kept an eye on her and did the whole checking her pupils, make sure she wasn't dizzy, or sleepy... I didn't let her fall asleep for a while after that. I was scared to let her sleep! But she's fine. Thank the LORD. *sigh* I just realized how painful this whole being a parent can be. It's not fun seeing your kids in pain. It hurts too much! LOL
It's definitely time for Sofia to sleep in her crib. We tried to do that a few months ago but that didn't work. It won't be any easier now, I know this. It makes me sad though because I've gotten to used to her warm little body next to mine ya know? Keeping her warm.... I think I'm gonna have a harder time with it than she is! Guess that's part of being a parent, isn't it? I wish she wouldn't grow so fast. She rolls over now and is starting to sit up on her own. I don't want my baby to grow up! [/hidepost]Oh... btw, we're back! haha.
Ayyy pobresita!! Thank God she is okay...and don't blame yourself! Although I know it's hard to follow that advice.
ReplyDeleteShe looks so precious in that last pic. :D
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Aw honey, don't blame yourself! It happens. :) I am glad she is okay though! Cheyenne almost fell off the bed, but I caught her about the time she hit her face on the side rail...so hey, lol. It happens.
ReplyDeleteAnd she looks adorable in the last pic. :D
I hope you had a good mother's day!
girl if i told you all the booboos my son got... yeeks. one day he was in the sling and slipped down as i opened the door. BAM there went his head! freaked me out.
ReplyDeletejust because she fell doesnt mean you HAVE to put her in the crib. You can put her in a cocoon of pillows, like my mom and i did for my son and he never fell off her platform bed.
you can also get a sidecar type of crib that is right next to the bed and you can still hug her while feeling safe.
Thank you, Frannie!
ReplyDeleteThanks Meagan, yeah it's so hard NOT to blame yourself. But I know it happens. It's one of her first many falls she'll have in life. It just sucks to see her in pain. Specially when you could have avoided it. =/
ReplyDeleteDon't be too hard on yourself. Just like your baby, you are learning as you go through babyhood to childhood.
ReplyDeleteI understand about how hard it is to move baby over to the crib. My baby never slept in the same bed as us (me, hubby and dog was enough)but he slept in the bassinett next to our bed. He outgrew the bassinett fast and I knew that the crib thing would be harder for me than my son. I would miss having him near me. But I knew that the longer I waited, the harder it would be to make the transition. So to make it easier for both of us, I started with just naps in the crib and after a couple of weeks of that, made the decision to have hubby put the bassinett up in storage before I changed my mind. It was hard at first, but what conforted me was having the baby monitor next to my bed so that I can watch him. I know it is not the same, but just being able to see him and hearing him breath brought me great comfort.
I am glad that Sofia is okay and she is getting prettier by the day!
Hi Connie! Thank you for your comment. I had planned to do that too. Put her in her crib for naps. I think that will make it easier on her too. So she will get used to the feeling of sleeping and waking up in her own crib. Like I said, my Mom did it too and she dealt with it fine. Even to this day, my youngest brother who is 14 years old now loves to wake up and snuggle in bed with her early in the morning. That's so sweet!
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you... isn't she the cutest? Of course! I'm the Momma, I agree! LOL
I'm glad Sofia is ok. I know it's scarry because Steven has fallen out of bed at least 3 times and we have hardwood floor so you can imagine. Don't be hard on yourself these things happen. My son would roll over the pillows we put around him, he just would sleep very hard. Steven never had a problem sleeping in the crib, but when he napped I would put him in the bed.
ReplyDeleteTrust me looking at my son (now almost 6) he's just fine and smart as ever.
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Glad to hear your baby is fine. My daughter's 10 months and both her older sister and brother let her fall off the bed. I know that feeling of sheer panic. The important thing is that she's ok.
ReplyDeleteHola Tocayita!! Ay que Sofia?!! El susto que te llevastes mujer!! I'm glad to hear that your all doing much better now. Y no te eches la culpa, it wasn't your fault!! Son cosas que, desafortunadament, pasan...
ReplyDeleteLoved the video, I couldn't hear the audio...but I was able to see it. You two look beautiful!! **Hugs**
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oh noes. I've done a ton of babysitting in my life and this has happened to me too. One time when xavier was a baby i left him on the bed to nap came back to check up on him and he was wedged between the wall and the BED! girl! I FREAKED out. thank goodness his head was facing up and not down to the floor! he would have for sure suffocated or something bad. = I also remember this one time when my little bro was just an infant me and my dad were waiting for my mom in the car and he had my little bro on the front seat and he rolled out of the car! my dad had the car on drive and when he rolled out my dad almost drove over him. OMG it was so scary! I think i was crying. so so scary.
ReplyDeletegirl, it happened to me when i was a baby!!! i was a few months old and my mom lifted me from the crib and laid me down on her bed next to my dad while he slept, and she went to take a shower. well, of course, my dad rolled over and somehow I ended up rolling right off the bed. my mother still says it was one of the most scariest moments of her life when she heard me scream. apparently it was so loud, she heard it through the shower water and came running out. then again, maybe she just has super hearing, being a mom and all. ;)
ReplyDeleteno te preocupes chica. if i'm ok, sofia's ok. :)
Aww! I know exactly how you feel. One time I was watching my niece when she was a baby and she was in her high chair, she saw I was leaving the room and moved forward and fell out of the chair! I guess I didn't lock the tray and I felt sooooo bad. Only she got a HUGE knot on her head. Stuff like that does happen though...
ReplyDeleteHappy belated mother's day!
See, your not the only mama to have her child fall off the bed. I had it happen with Monique. She would sleep with me too. After that (the pillow barricade didn't work for her) I transitioned her to the crib. It was good for both of us. I got a good night sleep and so did she. And hubby and I got our love life back! lmbo I do have ONE warning. If your child falls but later throws up take her to the ER!!! Monique was in the back of a shopping cart and fell out. We did all the test and made sure she did not fall asleep. That night she woke vomiting like crazy so we rushed her to the ER. It was so scary! I have been scared to tears many times with the girls. The worst was when Sophia was not even 1 and had a UTI and the testing they did on her! OMG it was horrible. I can't tell it here. So don't you worry. You are a wonderful mommy and you are doing a good thing moving her to the crib. Sofia loves you still, I promise.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad she's fine! :) Phew!
ReplyDeletealright i recorded like a 3 minute message with a story about my sophia but it didnt post! :(
ReplyDeleteYou probably didn't "save" it before you hit submit either. =(
ReplyDeleteI hate it when that happens!
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ReplyDeleteAna...I just wanted to say that this has happend to me too...WITH ALL THREE! yes I'm a bad mother I know .. pobrecita de Sofia... I hope she feels better now =(
ReplyDeleteI'm glad she is okay and you are too. :-)
ReplyDeleteXOXO
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OMG'osh, you guys! I can't believe some of your guys' stories! Yikes! I'm so glad the kiddos were ok. Yikes! Scary huh?
ReplyDeleteYou all made me feel so much better. Thank you. Sofia is doing great. Nothing out of the ordinary, thank God!
I could just imagine how you felt. I'm so sorry to hear about it...glad that she is fine and so are you. I'm sure things like this will happen but I'm sure this will definitely keep you on your toes.
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oh sirenita!!! girl if its any consolation Oscar fell of my bed 2 days ago! you know how high my bed is! he didnt't cry though he just got up and ran! lol he did fall and go boom when he was 6 months old off my bed he had rug burn on his forehead for days! it happens to all of us at one time or another. For now i suggest getting a crib that will become an extention of your bed till she learns to sleep on her own. Poor baby though im glad shes ok kiss her boo-boo for me. love ya
ReplyDeleteLMAO!!!!!!!!!! @ "...he did fall off and go boom"
ReplyDeleteLMBO! "boom"? BAAAHHHHH! I can just picture you telling me all this in person. "and he go boom". LOL! I can just picture him taking off running like nothing too. Silly nephew of mine! SO CUTE! I miss you guys so much!