In a bubble.

If you visit my flickr, you know I talked about this already. Did anybody watch the Oprah show aired earlier this week that had to do about child pornography? I missed it but a friend on twitter filled me in on it and then I visited the Oprah website and read some bits and pieces about the show. Let me just say... SO SO horrible. Like seriously? I can't believe there are sick individuals like that. Individuals that look like your next door neighbor. You can't trust anybody. ANYBODY. I feel horrible when I say this but you hear so many stories about how people's own family members abuse sexually of children. Sick! I thank the LORD that I was never sexually abused. But sad to say that some men in the family (when I was little) made me feel very uncomfortable. You know, when you notice they look at you weird? Or when they rub you the wrong way? A little too affectionate??? Yeah, I've had that happen to me. And this was by men in the family that everyone trusted and thought were GREAT honest men. I'm not going into details but all I gotta say is I wouldn't leave my daughter around them. Fortunately, these men aren't that close tight knit to our immediate family so I need not worry but my point is, sometimes you can't even trust your own family. SCARY! It's a horrible way to live I know, but this is a cruel world and to protect my daughter, I won't take that chance! BTW, up to just a few months ago, my sister and I exchanged these feelings we had around these men in the family and I could NOT believe she went through the same thing I did! Yikes. I tell you.

I told hubby that when Sofia goes to Elementary and stuff, I'm going to be those type of Mom's who's going to drop and pick her up everyday from school. I do NOT care. LOL Once I feel she's old enough to take care of herself, then I might lay back a little but UHUH. When I was little and we lived in Los Angeles, I used to have to take the city bus to my Jr. High School and my sister to her elementary school. One day, as I was walking alone to the RTD bus stop from school, this guy in his car stopped, opened his passenger door and told me to get in, that my Mom had asked him to pick me up from work because she had to work late. I swear, good thing I knew my Mom worked AFTERNOONS, obviously the reason she couldn't pick us up from school, so I knew this guy was lying. I got so scared. I don't remember what I told him but I didn't get into his car. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I got into his car. You see all this posters of missing children. Would I have been one of those? Scary thought! But seriously... what if? And I don't care, but I'm not letting that happen to Sofia. Am I crazy for thinking that way??? This world is just too cruel. Too cruel. I want to keep her in a bubble. FOREVER. I trust no one.