Health issues STINK.

This past October I turned 34. I can't tell you how EXCITED I was about that because this whole year I thought I was turning 35. Seriously - I'm not joking. In my head for a whole year I thought I was 34 going on 35. Imagine my shock when my sister corrected me ON MY BIRTHDAY when I was informing the whole world that I was officially 35 that day! LOL She told me that there was no way I was going to be 35! That I was in fact turning 34! LOL OMG - talk about a DUH moment. After you have children, it's all about them. And since Sofia and I share the same birth month, well yeah - my bday gets thrown in the back burner really. LOL And that's ok - I'm not complaining, I swear! I just completely lost count. Just another day now. It's all about her. =) Anyway, that's my excuse. Or maybe I really am losing my screws as I get older? haha

Anyway... one thing I have noticed now that I'm getting older is health issues. Man... I hope some of you can relate. If you're too young - no worriesssssss... you will one day too! I was in your same shoes once. HAHA! As you know, I have PKD and PCOS. Due to that, I have high blood pressure. I also suffer from Anxiety. I think it's anxiety anyway. I haven't officially been diagnosed with it yet but that's what I suspect it is. After I had Sofia it seemed like my Anxiety episodes have increased. In the form, intensity and in how often they occur. I can't really figure them out. When my husband first left, I was having panic attacks a lot. Specially heart palpitations. I even went to a Cardiologist who ran every test imaginable and NOPE - nada. He looked at me like I was crazy. *sigh* But I KNOW what I feel. Something doesn't feel right. Anyway... The episodes had subsided for a while and now they're back again. Now that my husband is back. So I know it's definitely not stress. I'm experiencing these episodes where I feel like my heart stops for like a second or two and then like something is squeezed in the middle of my chest and I lose my breath and then my heart starts beating normal again. It happens over and over and over again... specially when I lay down. It's so hard to get myself to sleep now. SO frustrating! I also feel pressure on my chest most of the day. And sometimes it hurts. For no reason at all. Am I wrong to think that it's just not normal???

I went to the doctor today. For a completely different reason. I had an ingrown toe nail that got infected and landed me in the ER. Yes - laugh on my behalf. You're welcome. It was pretty embarrassing. I can tolerate pain but man... I couldn't bear it anymore. I guess I tolerated the pain too long because by the time I went to get medical attention to it, it was infected, swollen and the size of Sofia's HEAD! Ok - no, I lie... not THAT big. But BIG. You get the idea. LOL! The doc in the ER said she recommended I treat the infection first with antibiotics and steroids and then to go see my primary care doctor. Fine. Just give me DRUGS! So I can feel better! LOL I did.

Fast forward to today. I had an appointment with my primary care doc and she looked at it and thought it looked fine. Well of course it does! I am on drugs! Anti-biotics AND steroids. But the problem is still under there. It was a no go. They would not remove it. They recommended I do what I'm doing right now. Soaking it and just wait for it to grow out? *sigh* Anyway I've already made a long story into a NOVEL but I went ahead and took advantage and talked to the doc about my heart palpitations.

I have brought up this issue to her since the beginning of LAST year. So she knows it's nothing new. It's NOT going away. It's NOT getting better. So... she is putting me on a holter monitor AGAIN. I'm at a point you guys where I'm willing to take meds for this if it turns out to be anxiety because it's just affecting my every day life. It really is. I feel like it is anyway.

I sure hope Sofia doesn't grow up and suffer from Anxiety too because it's really the worst thing ever. EVER!