I was asked that question this weekend. At a gas station of all places! ON BASE! While I was pumping gas. Isn't that the weirdest thing? I'm standing there wishing that the pump would pump the gas faster because Sofia was yelling "Momma..... Mommaaaaa" from inside the truck. Joe's usually the one to fill up for me, so she's not used to me leaving her in the car. LOL Anyway, I'm standing there pumping and comforting her by telling her, "Almost done baby... hold on just one more minute..." when this lady comes up to me. She was very polite. She said hello and said she was from some church and she had a little pamphlet in her hand. She said she really loved her church and that if she gave me that pamphlet with her church info if I'd go to her church. Whoah. Way to put me on the spot. I guess I could have lied. But I didn't. I hate to lie when it comes to stuff like that. I said "Honestly, probably not." She said, "Oh, do you go to a specific church already?" I said "No, we just don't go to church..." She had this look on her face. Disbelief-maybe? I'm not sure. Then she proceeded by asking me, "Well... why don't you go to church???" ...... talk about weird. Umm... insert a pause and silence here. "Ummm... well we just... decide not to go? I don't know. It's not that we don't believe in God. We do, we just DON'T GO TO CHURCH." And then Sofia started yelling again. So I didn't pay much attention to what she told me after that. She said something but I missed it. And then she politely said goodbye and left. After she walked away I felt so WEIRDED out. I felt like... guilty! Damn it. I know I should go to church but I don't ok? I almost felt a little angry at her. LOL Like, why'd you have to corner me like that? Shit.
Maybe it is time for me to go back to church. I don't know. I just haven't found the right one yet? IDK... So complicated.
Mission accomplished on her part. She got you thinking didn't she?
ReplyDeleteReligion is a personal choice. You shouldn't feel guilty about whatever your choice is at this time in your life. I hate people that do those kind of things to you. My father even told me once that I needed spiritality in my life. WTF! I told him that I was old enough to know what I need in my life. Some people!!!!
Don't feel weird, it's your personal choice. You don't have to go to church to believe in God. :P It's between you and him not you and a congregation! It's especially hard when you just don't find a place you feel is right. So yeah don't feel weird and don't worry about it. :D
ReplyDeleteah yes, when i work i always get the "we go to a lovely church and we'd love for u to come" my easy way out is "im sorry I dont like to talk about religion at work. thanks. im sure its great." and leave it at that. ggeezzz do these people have to fill a quota on how many people they get to join their churches? I feel u sister.
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