Gosh, 2009 flew right before my eyes. It doesn't even feel like it's 2010. Sofia was born 2007, which still feels like yesterday! And it's already 2010!? Come on! No fair! Time flies too quickly! I don't have complaints about 2009 really. Ever since we moved here I've felt more happy and felt inner peace like I've never before. And I think that reflects. I was glad to say goodbye to 2009 only because I'm really looking forward to 2010! I think 2010 will be one full of great and positive changes for me. I think I've finally gotten to that point in my life where I realize how life short is and how I want to make the best of it. I want to be around for a LONG LONG time. For Sofia. I've decided to become a Vegetarian. I know that becoming isn't a sure bet to a long life. I know that... but I haven't been happy with the way I've been eating for the past 15 plus years. And with the diseases that I suffer from (PKD & PCOS) I think it'll make a huge difference. And why not? I know a lot of people think that giving up meat is INSANE. And my thoughts? Well... keep thinking that way. I'm not going to force someone to change their mind. And they can call me crazy too. I don't care. Ever since I've been working out and eating more healthy (LESS meat) I've been feeling GREAT. And that's really what matters most. That it works for me and that I'm ok with what I eat. I feel so much more healthier and happier. Loving this!
The next change I've made into my life is finding a religion and following it. Getting closer to God. My husband grew up Seventh Day Adventist and all these LONG years of marriage he hasn't ONCE tried to push his religion on me. I told him I'd follow one when I was touched by the holy spirit and felt ready to make a change. I grew up without a religion really. VERY confused. I mean, I knew that there was a God, and I believed in him. And I believed there was a Christ and Angels and all that but that was really it. So now I'm ready and want to really read the bible and learn about Christ and God. I feel so peaceful when I do. I also want Sofia to grow up with the belief in God and Christ. Not be like me all confused. And I think that's one of the best gifts we can give her as parents. Because God forbid she ever loses us both, I want her to know and believe that if she's ever feels alone, that God is always watching over her. =) Over Christmas, she grabbed my little "nativity scene" I have under the tree and said "Mom, look! Baby Jesus..!" and she pointed at the baby in the scene. She learned that from Church school she goes to on Saturday mornings. Isn't that amazing? I thought it was! That was probably one of the best gifts we got as parents this Christmas. To hear her say that. =)
I'm still the same person. Really, I am. But only better, I think. And I don't care if anybody wants to judge me because of this change I've made now. I'm still me. I'm still Ana.
I think that its great what you are doing . Noone should judge you ,you are doing what is best for you, and your family.Plus I think its a wonderful way to start the year.
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